When Rod was diagnosed with Cancer three days before Xmas in 2022, I put my life and business on hold to support him in his healing journey. Something I would do a million times over, and continue to do so daily, because of the love and the commitment we share for each other.
Here we are just over twelve months on, and I’ve spent the last three months whilst travelling reflecting on who I am as a person now, what my life looks like and what truly makes me happy.
I have to say I got myself a little lost over the past few years, chopping and changing what I wanted to do in my business, alternating between mainstream counselling and my holistic therapies. I felt like my spiritual side had taken a backward step as I focussed on supporting others through counselling. The whole time, pushing down the words “what are you doing Chris, are you being true to your soul, where is Soulful C?”. Trying to tell myself that this is what I want to do, believing that this was what the community needed most. I remember thinking to myself, how egotistical are you, thinking this is what the community needed most and I smile about that now. I recognised that I needed to put my ego aside and truly get out of my own way.
It’s not often that we think of a cancer diagnosis in a positive way, but if there’s one thing that’s come from this, is that it has given me the time and space to take that step back and do a great deal of self-reflection. I’ve returned to my spiritual self in a way that feels more aligned with who I am as a person. I’ve realised that this life is far too short to spend it doing the things that aren’t congruent with my soul. It’s not that I don’t enjoy the counselling, because being able to support someone to improve their emotional well-being is very heart-warming. But I have recognised that I can still do this through my holistic and spiritual work, whilst at the same time satisfying my own soul’s purpose.
My spiritual beliefs have given me the strength to face the difficulties of the last year as well as the unknown of the future. It’s allowed me the time to share these with Rod and discover things about each other that we didn’t already know, understand how we view life from our different perspectives, yet still supporting each other in our individuality. Through my energy and sound healing training, I’ve been able to provide him with the right environment to create some calm amongst the chaos that cancer can bring.
At the start of 2024 I made a commitment to myself that I would return to doing what I love whilst at the same time creating a balance between work, my own needs and supporting Rod. My business these days looks a little different and whilst it’s a slow return to work, my focus will be on providing a supportive and healing environment for anyone who has their lives touched by cancer or long-term illness.
In the meantime, if you would like to know more about what I do, or would like to share your own journey, please feel free to send me a message.
Much love ~ Christine
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